The snow piles up

"You should clean up around here."

"I know."

"You're living like a pig. You sit around all day and play that game, or your guitar, or get online and--"

"I know"

"You're trying to escape."

"Yes."

"Do you think you'll find answers here? Shut in like a hermit?"

"I don't know."

"Yes you do. You're treading water, waiting for a lifesaver."

"And? What do you want me to do? What would you do? What can I do, really?"

"Do something productive. Get your mind off all the shit."

"That's what I've been doing."

"Your distractions are hardly productive."

"Not all of them, but I've been working on some of my songs."

"Most of that was done before you got here."

"Listen, will you just shut up?"

Silence. Hurt silence

"I don't care if you pout. I don't much give a fuck about what anyone thinks right now."

Silence. Ahh, blessed silence! Now, back to the game. Fuck, this is hard. I just need to figure out how to kill this bastard, and I can finish this quest. Fucking game!

"You need some better armor, with resistance to cold."

"Oh, now you're telling me how to play? Do you ever really do anything besides tell others what to do? You know that's part of why I'm here, to get away from that sort of thing."

"Yes, and the other part? So you don't have to see her, however much you want to? You obsessively check online for messages from her. You jump every time you get a text to see if it's from her. And when you do get a message? You tell her how fucking hard it is for you, how sad you are. Like that's going to make her feel sorry for you and she'll want to be with you again?"

"I know it's not going to do that. She's not that type of person. I just hurt whenever I think about her. I don't want to make her feel bad, and the situation is such that I know it wouldn't work until I wrap that other shit up. I don't really think it'll work then either, and that sucks. So I'm like a dog lying in the corner, licking my nuts and feeling sorry for myself. It's a shitty situation and I'm coping how I can. Now, will you leave me alone?"

"Sure. I'm just trying to help."

Fucking insane person I have to live with!

"I heard that."

I know, you're a voice in my goddamn head!

"No, I'm you."